Even warmer, the sun hazy with snowmelt vapor. A gold-foil sunset stretched to tearing.

I felt a strange mix of guilt and ambition today: big dreams and new year’s resolutions on my mind, but an inability to do anything now, and feeling bad because of it. Feeling stuck.

But then tonight, as only a pet – or a child – can do, Rafe showed me just how uncomplicated it could be. He brought me back to the present. He needed me, he chose me, and he even showed me what to do. I laid back on a pillow. He climbed up, sat on my chest, and pushed his head into my hand until I stopped feeling sorry for myself and started caring for him. He purred. If I could purr I would have, too.